What is one word that describes you?

I’ve been called a force of nature, complicated, and intense. I mean I don’t even understand myself most of the time. 

I used to analyze, look and investigate why I was the way I was.  What happened I often wondered. I spent years healing, purging, venting and trying to learn how to be the best version of myself.

But in the end, I realized it just doesn’t matter. I will never quite figure it out and I’m cool with that.  Well, sometimes I should say.  The goal, instead, is to just be at peace with how and who I am.  

That doesn’t mean we are a victim of our feelings. It doesn’t mean we get to sit back and declare nothing matters.

I could, but I won’t.

Instead, I understand and know that my essence is love and light. That’s what I’m made of.  But we are all having this human experience which can be quite complicated.  The shadow self comes out to play here and there.  Yet when I embrace all of the parts, we are able to walk hand in hand, together. 

So my intent is to see the moment for what it is. And from there, I get to decide who I am and what I want.   I am the creator of my experience after all.