Pandemic Ponderings

When you feel unlovable it hits you like a sledge hammer knocking you to the ground. You instantly connect and remember every time you felt rejected, abandoned, left behind, ignored. You also remembered the times you pushed people away as if the idea of loving you was preposterous or just incredibly uncomfortable. Thus begins the …

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This crisis, this opportunity

During this pandemic I started like most others. I read the news, kept up to date until the fear seeped in. It's hard for that NOT to happen considering we have never had to deal with a pandemic before. If you have struggled with anxiety and/or depression, it can hit us hard. I mean, when …

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This crisis, this opportunity

Breathe in During this pandemic I started like most others. I read the news, kept up to date until the fear seeped in. It's hard for that NOT to happen considering we have never had to deal with a pandemic before. If you have struggled with anxiety and/or depression, it can hit us hard. I …

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Let’s spread some light

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28 years sober

Sobriety Poem: 28 Years

Friday Musings

I thought I was going to do something amazing. I had so many dreams, ideas, passions . . . then life happened. Some of the dreams were created and some fell by the wayside. Sometimes I look around and I observe an old friend making a dream a reality. I remember the disappointment. What if. I …

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Run From Intimacy

Relationships and friendships have mostly been a disaster. As a young girl, I preferred a close friend over many. However, jealousy, feelings of disappointment, sensitivity, feelings of unworth and not a part of, however, went hand in hand.   Whether friend or lover, the push, pull sense of wanting what I could not have and not …

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Relationships: Run From Intimacy

Relationships and friendships have mostly been a disaster. As a young girl, I preferred a close friend over many. However, jealousy, feelings of disappointment, sensitivity, feelings of unworth and not a part of, however, went hand in hand.   Whether friend or lover, the push, pull sense of wanting what I could not have and not …

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Let go of what other people think!

I used to be the classic people pleaser. I spent countless moments worried about what other people thought. If somebody thought ill of me, I spent time going around trying to fix it. I remember in College, a friend started saying things about me, to other friends, that weren't true. It caused great anguish. I …

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