beautiful sky

What brings you joy?

I ask because I am sometimes at a loss as to what brings me joy. I mean when we are kids, we grab our matchbox cars and take them outside, happily making "roads" with the grass. We get with a group of kids and play Kick the Can or Kickball until the dinner bell rings. …

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lake stillness

Poetry: Time

A blinkA woman, old and graySitting in a chair overlooking the lake A blinkRunning through the fieldsDon't let the bees stingDidn't have a chance A blinkPlaying an instrumentSitting on a fenceNeighbor parents watching the show A blinkOld and contentMemory fadingA life well lived A blinkMy wedding dayThe birth of my sonGraduation A blinkCrawling on my …

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Who am I …

Be Present

A month ago, I looked at all of my problems, issues, and the anger continued to build. When I picked up an Eckhart Tolle book and started really practicing the tools, I looked at my problems with full acceptance, then burst out laughing! I had an immediate release and the words "it is what it …

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Creativity – what a gift

It's so easy to get caught up in worrying thoughts so that the next thing you know you are drowning in despair with darkness swirling around. It is subtle and sneaks up on you. It's easy to do these days. Sure, feelings come and go. But sometimes I forget the "go" part. It's important to …

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Creativity – what a gift

It's so easy to get caught up in worrying thoughts so that the next thing you know you are drowning in despair with darkness swirling around. It is subtle and sneaks up on you. It's easy to do these days. Sure, feelings come and go. But sometimes I forget the "go" part. It's important to …

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Pandemic Ponderings

When you feel unlovable it hits you like a sledge hammer knocking you to the ground. You instantly connect and remember every time you felt rejected, abandoned, left behind, ignored. You also remembered the times you pushed people away as if the idea of loving you was preposterous or just incredibly uncomfortable. Thus begins the …

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Sobriety Poem: 28 Years

28 years sober

Relationships: Run From Intimacy

Relationships and friendships have mostly been a disaster. As a young girl, I preferred a close friend over many. However, jealousy, feelings of disappointment, sensitivity, feelings of unworth and not a part of, however, went hand in hand.   Whether friend or lover, the push, pull sense of wanting what I could not have and not …

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