Back to the Beginning

Last year, after a health issue and surgery, I realized something needed to change. I put in my resignation as SEL Specialist/MTSS Behavior Coordinator and jumped. But not too far. My son had just graduated college. I was proud yet wistful. How had he grown up so fast? I went to his graduation and listened …

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Change

Sometimes, after going through something extremely unpleasant, the ordeal can end up being a turning point in one’s life. Letting go of the past, letting go of our safety net, letting go of things no longer serving us can be scary. It’s a venture into the unknown. We can fluctuate back and forth, creating doubt, …

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I would be happy, if only….

I would be happy if only….fill in the blank. My life had been filled with that phrase. It started when I was very young. If only: I didn’t have that freckle on my faceI didn’t have this compulsionI didn’t have this obsessionI was thinI didn’t have my pastI didn’t have the regretsI had my soulmateI …

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Walking on the path

Decisions: Second Guessing

We follow our heart…or so it seems. One day we realize we made a mistake . . . Or did we? I have always struggled with decisions. I have always struggled with fear. Over a lifetime, I’ve learned when I need to push through something and when I need to walk away. Very imperfectly I …

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Poetry: Friday night moment

A poem on a Friday night . . . . I ask for guidanceThe words fallNobody buys itWhat am I doing? I get up at 4:50 a.m.Every day is the sameOr not15 years gone . . . How? I writeI prayA master at creatingNot at this I say I keep showing upI stumbleI bounce backWho …

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Walking through change

  My boy is all grown up.   When did this happen?   I blinked and it was so.   As I ponder back through memory fields during the time I went to college, as he is now doing, I sit with the intense feelings.   What if . . . I say to myself. …

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misty morning

Decisions

If I look back on my life, the biggest decisions were not made by thinking, worrying, obsessing, wondering, and trying to figure it out on my own.In times of big decision, it all became crystal clear when I quieted my mind and felt loving guidance. You don’t have to DO anything! We were conditioned at …

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